“When hope is fleeting, stop for a moment and visualize, in a sky of silver, the crescent of a lavender moon. Imagine it — delicate, slim, precise, like a paper-thin slice from a cabochon jewel.
It may not be very useful, but it is beautiful.
And sometimes it is enough.”
― Vera Nazarian, The Perpetual Calendar of Inspiration
I needed somewhere to talk to myself. Nothing else fit. This is where I am now.
I’m in a state about the world, and work, and the future, and the past.
But I also want to talk about working out, and how I’m getting into tarot, and how I miss my mom, and how I want to remodel my house (but I’m pretty lazy).
Blogging seems weird, but life seems weird too. Maybe it fits.
We’ll just see how this all plays out.
Life just keeps on moving along. Cancer still sucks. Mom is still fighting/surving/living/loving. Currently I’m sitting outside watching the sunset; which is my favorite, right after the sunrise.
Usually we run on Saturday mornings but we decided to shake things up and run on Sunday morning this week so it’s wine on Friday night, which is a little different.
Someone on my Twitter feed posted earlier that there was so much hate and that it is so hard to love. But there’s also so much love and I keep trying to remember that.
I bought a new domain, but I probably won’t use it. I honestly debated spending over $2,000 to re-purchase the first domain I had in 1999. But I wouldn’t use it either, so I didn’t. I tried installing some old school blog software but it sucked more than I remembered.
I don’t know how so much time has passed. I don’t know how everything is so different and so the same. I think not having kids fucks with your sense of time. You lack those milestones which become metrics by which to judge the passing of time.
Nothing productive is going to come out of this post, I just wanted words on the screen.
Other things I’ve meant to blog about but never did:
For lack of composing my thoughts in any real way, here’s what’s up in my world.
Reading: Hounded (The Iron Druid Chronicles #1) I picked up this book on the recommendation of a coworker and though I was pretty skeptical at first (doubly so when I saw there was a pronunciation guide at the front), I am about 2/3 through and am really loving this book so far. I’m excited it’s part of a still ongoing series!
Watching: We watch a lot of things. We watched Crimson Peak (imdb) this weekend. It was fine. The only thing notable about it was how boring and non-shocking it was. So much wasted potential. We also watched two episodes of Battle Creek (imdb) and gave up on it for the same reason. Not even Dean Winters was enough to make me keep watching. That’s just sad.
Listening: The Wolves by JJ & the Pillars (spotify). It’s a good running song. It’s a good everything song.
Eating: We ate at a Kerby Lane Cafe for the first time in our 5 years in Austin today. 5 years is about my average lag time, so I’m right on track.
Exploring: Hiking at Turkey Creek Trail. It was a drive to get there, but totally worth it. Let’s close this post out with my Instagrammed pics from the experience.
I think I’ve said this before, but I often write blog posts in head – in the shower, on runs, while commuting. But they so rarely make it to the page, and I then I forget what brilliance I was going to share with you.
I am currently working on self-care. More running, more yoga, more music, more routine. I also need to work in better work focus, more blogging, more socializing. But I’m getting there.
We’ve been sort of half thinking, half talking about getting a new car, but I think we’re leaning towards more serious exploration now. Hopefully we’ll go this weekend and check out a few options. It would be more exciting if it wasn’t such a pain in the ass. Someone make Amazon for car-buying (oh wait, I think I read about a guy who tried that in the hey-day of the bubble and got laughed off the internet).
Anyway, this is boring, but that’s life sometimes. I’ll try to come back when I have something more interesting
P.S. wtf with new WP making my sideway smiles into emojis with no way to disable?! ugh.
P.P.S technology is great, but there are some things I’m never going to be down with, and reformatting my smilies is one, and if you know me at all, webfonts are another (even though this theme uses them [cause I’m lazy], and there are more instances of good use of them lately; in general, I still say, ‘get off my lawn’).
